I Loved Her

They lock the door on their room when they are going to start fucking
and I am grateful a little since I won’t have to walk in
but I never walked in and I don’t want to see their room
so I don’t know why they locked the door but they did.

I loved them some but I hated everyone and I drank as much as I could
and I’d drink shots of gin and throw them up into the toilet
and then drink more because that is the kind of man I am.

They locked their door and maybe they were happy
and maybe they made love
but probably
by five fucking thirty three in the morning they were tired
and there was no one left awake but me.