Autobiography no. 15

 For whatever reason
I was whispering lies to myself.
She asked what I was muttering so I told her
“They say that the largest organism is the redwood
but it is actually the planet.”

I looked at her, really looked at her,
and I realized that I did not mean anything I said,
that barely anything was alive and that trees were no exception,
that I would burn several large forests
or the whole fucking continent of Asia
if the alternative was losing her.

I did not want to let her know that so I kissed her.
An hour later
she vomited noodles all over my carpet
which I did not expect to happen.